Decibel Breaker

My legs are going to either leave me or just give up the way the bombardment is happening is super critical as i get to faint at times ..not faint but can see colors and birds flying ... or else i keep on shouting SWAMIJI X infinity  no of times and gosshh... it pains it pains a lot i lose my legs after that exercise..

Since yesterday a new schedule came into place and that's morning exercises and evening massage done by SWAMIJI himself and guys trust me he plays guitar with my nerves and even thats killer.. i was about to bite of Bachan yesterday as even was assisting SWAMIJI with the same..

I am sure he had made a point that i run on my birthday and i am happy with the same except the pain factor as it pains like hell... According to SWAMIJI the logic of the pain in re awakening of the dead tissues fibres n cells..
Today was the second day of the leggy pain and i am sure it will be there for 3 more days and then it will be gone and i hope by saturday i can feel them back as a part of my very own body..

I am sure and hopeful about resuming my less hectic professional life by May first week.. rest perfect as body only pains during exercise and when i sleep rest all under control..

Do send me across the birthday gifts... since i wont be disclosing my address as my office guys will take me back so just wire transfer the amount would be more than happy and last date is 5th April

Also got a top secret weapon of being super powerful.. Thanks to Doc Suman Maám

Take Care All Living Beings..

Good bye time to do some exercise and  get ready for shirshasam and Killer Effective Massage..

:D

Reload

Its time for me to relax and let things go which are negative in my life..

Improvement after Water treatment is remarkable as earlier as i used to feel super low after the same but today is the second day i am feeling much better getting up was difficult but the rest was smooth as butter and things are improving even me as a person...

In ashram there are 2 amazing characters Sunil Shetty aka Abodh one with pure heart and full of dedication n devotion and second character is Bachhan aka Abhishek just inverse of Sunil Shetty..

Today me legs were put under tremendous pressure via different exercises and yoga postures.. and its just the beginning as from monday they will be again bombarded with lots of exercises with lesser gap..

I still fear for my neck when i do Shrishasan as its killer for me... Today even did the dog pose and its super effective for abdominal muscles.. From cat to dog going thru everything and finally aiming to be a human soon..

A week more and Rosh will be here for sometime been missing here since day one... Take care of urself and pls dont forget to get walky talky.. Thanks for ur presence and being there is darker times of my life but its soon going to be brighter as i can the light ...

Met Doc Suman Maám and Doc Manoj Sir after a long together and felt so happy.. They are the icons for me seriously and thanks 4 the rasgullas maám just had them 3 of them and they were delicious..

SWAMIJI and Myself have named my hip girdle as Sridevi as for last 2 days since we have started working on it.. it has started dancing as in feel i may trip anytime with lots of buckles.. But its all good as dead is getting re awakening..

At times I miss being in action back in office SENSEX, NIFTY at what price at what level what quantity what yield.. it used to be fun and life once.. but trust me guys HSBC is  the best place to work in banking and FS segment..

Ahh.. here comes monday and time for me reload and starting firing up again so that i can shoot MND out of my life.. and i am sure can do just few more days and i am back to 75%...

Thanks god for everything i am even loving this phase of life... Bless all and especially Doc Manoj and Me as we need ur blessings to make it happen for the world..

Take care guys time to call wife up and say sweetest dreams b4 i hit the bed and enjoy the feel of ZERO..

Cheers....

Shoot Them Up

Finally the final assault on the hip girdle has started and it looks very effective as weakness has come down n stamina is on the rise.. Next week and that's all and the final peak will be conquered

Planning and implementation is yielding into results.. as hip girdle is obeying my orders and during most of the yoga postures it is actually working on its own with full strength..

So far so good and i am sure soon my body will have the best of me and i'll be off these dark days of life which taught me the real meaning of human birth and my role play in the entire universe..

Will miss SWAMIJI as his conversations are the best and tooo enlightening for me and it has evolved me as a better human being and now i love myself more... infact more than HSBC now..

Just counting days and working hard on getting things back in shape as captain of my ship aka roshni will be here by 4th April so need to show her considerable improvement and get smiles back on her face.. I do miss you alot..

Protein diet is on with lots of fruits and cereals and they are really showing up in my health.. work outs on the abdomen is working like miracles..

Rest perfect down here do let me know if anybody who needs any help or support on getting over so called incurable MND just post a comment with ur email and i will get in touch with you.,,

God Bless ALL!!

Jai Hind

Enter the Dragon

Today i did the Shirshasam... head down legs up and it was terrible but effects were terrific i can feel the difference in the entire body its acting as an unit now..

Spine near the tail bone pains a lot and is still paining.. but i am happy that progress is better than expected and planned even SMAMIJI mentioned the same and i happy to hear that..

I am currently doing the Rabbit pose; good for thighs and spine, Snake Pose; good for abdomen and back
Fish Pose: Good for brain as blood gushes inside with full force and makes it more healthier
Flying Pose; good for calves muscles and toes..

There are many yoga postures aided by meditation which makes me feel more stronger and better,,,, The best thing is i can see and feel the improvement.. Yesterday night whole back, hips and thighs were in sever pain but when i woke up in the morning it was all gone and i can feel the strength back even did some walking which made it much better..

Today its panneer in lunch and breakfast was super healthy sprouts jaggery and lassi and i am loving it these days..I am happy today for one more reason as there is no water treatment today..as it really drains energy off..

Well today had a discussion with SWAMIJI and then i started knowing the reason why i came here.. He is the one who knows and does everything what i ever wanted to do and thats a secret by trust me its a fantasyland for me where dreams are coming true slowly...

Thanks for the prayers guys and gals...

Have a gr8 day ahead and yes DONT STOP TILL U GET ENOUGH..

GoD Bless All!!!!

Moon Walk

HOLI is over and it did bring in some colors to my life as SWAMIJI made me do some yoga postures which was tiring and painful as hell fire but had magical effects as i can feel considerable amount of energy and strength in my waist thighs and abdomen.. WE have planned to keep on doing the same for another 10 days as i am sure by 6th April the day legend was born things  will be better than the best as its improving and it makes me very happy and blessed that i am at the right place getting the right thing done with holistic effect and gods around aka SWAMIJI and MATAJI..

Yesterday had joy ride with 2 dogs named NATOO (labby) and Sasha( Mix German Shephard) to ORMANGHI a place where new ashram is being built and these dogs they jumped over me howled and did everything except biting me..

There at new ashram first setting of my waist and abdomen was done and guys trust me i lost my self was shouting like a barking deer and cursing myself with SWAMIJI forcing my body to the limits.. It lasted for 3-4 minutes but effects were too good i can feel better with my legs and mobility  And i am sure this exercise for 10 days and make me run and gallop like a horse... Time to get into the TimeMachine and be 18 back again i guess that;s y i got this..

Thanks for ur prayers guys...

Cheers!!!!

Festive Time

Had a bad start with two falls as leg couldnt obey my instructions bloody rebels.. Since then i have launched full scale attack on them..Pushing them off limits every hour need to make sure that they accept my dictatorship..

Weakness still persists after the water therapy but thats normal as my abs and abdomen are getting stronger i can feel the same..I accept good recovery after the full moon i dont know but i get this strange feeling i hope its true but this faith is making me go strong..

In India we celebrate festival of colors this sunday known as HOLI... and after marriage this is my festival and wont be there with my wife sorry dear but i'm aiming and trying for faster recovery but anyways we will have a blast time on my birthday.. forgive me this year sweetheart but will unite with you soon..

meditation is also very effective for getting the MND up and working i have been trying some for last few weeks and now can feel electrical sparks emerging from my brain ending up at my legs and it was a killer feeling i have started practicing the same thrice a day...

GOOD PEOPLE DIE YOUNG... but i'm not good so i will survive and sail thru this and i'm sure about it..

Still got many hill tops to be conquered, missing rock music a lot....

LONG LIVE EMINEM... 8TH MILE IS THE TRACK U NEED TO ENJOY..LOSE URSELF..

"Lose Yourself"

Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready to drop bombs,
but he keeps on forgettin what he wrote down,
the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's choking how, everybody's joking now
The clock's run out, time's up over, bloah!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't give up that
Easy, no
He won't have it , he knows his whole back's to these ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so stagnant that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, that's when it's
Back to the lab again yo
This whole rhapsody
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him

[Hook:]
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo
(You better)

The soul's escaping, through this hole that it's gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is boring, but superstardom's close to post mortem
It only grows harder, only grows hotter
He blows us all over these hoes is all on him
Coast to coast shows, he's know as the globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He's grown farther from home, he's no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose 'cause here goes the cold water
His hoes don't want him no more, he's cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose dove and sold nada
So the soap opera is told and unfolds
I suppose it's old partner but the beat goes on
Da da dum da dum da da

[Hook]

No more games, I'ma change what you call rage
Tear this %^&$#&& roof off like 2 dogs caged
I was playing in the beginning, the mood all changed
I been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhyming and stepwritin the next cypher
Best believe somebody's paying the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the fact
That I can't get by with my 9 to 5
And I can't provide the right type of life for my family
Cause man, these goddam food stamps don't buy diapers
And it's no movie, there's no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard and it's getting even harder
Trying to feed and water my seed, plus
Teeter totter caught up between being a father and a prima donna
Baby mama drama's screaming on and
Too much for me to wanna
Stay in one spot, another day of monotony
Has gotten me to the point, I'm like a snail
I've got to formulate a plot or I end up in jail or shot
Success is my only motherfucking option, failure's not
Mom, I love you, but this trailer's got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem's lot
So here I go it's my shot.
Feet fail me not this may be the only opportunity that I got

[Hook]

You can do anything you set your mind to, man

do watch the songs guy my personal fav...sorry for the explicit lyrics.

Dreams

Today was again the day for the water treatment to happen i got my nose stomach and intestine all cleaned up..

Weakness wasn't there today infact felt lighter and much better after the exercise.. and finally i'm promoted in my yoga classes and will be going to morning 0530 hrs classes..

I dreamt of football today and tigers and elephants.. wanted to play football in south africa and i was so happy to see myself dribble the ball post the goal post and after this dream i got a mission to fulfill this dream soon..

When i came here i was 77 and today i am 73 lost 4 kgs i used to fear this with muscle loss but doesnt look like the same as i can see excess fat from thighs gone..my hands have become thinner but strength has gone up significantly.. SWAMIJI feels 70% recovery is possible soon but i feel its 200% in sometime only thing is i should never ever give up as this body is mine and i am supposed to rule my brain and body organs they arent supposed to rule me..

I now have a role model for me who is the perfect icon to follow and recover also my personal favorite as we share many things in common apart from my title.. killing and swimming.. the only difference is it kills animals and i kill in PS2.. TIGER is the ultimately source whenever i meditate i focus on the eyes of the tiger and source energy from the same and i did it just once today for 10 mins and it was super effective i could feel the difference in limbs as well as mind it does makes u a sharper one..

The lesson i learned for the day is NEVER EVER COMPARE JUST KEEP URSELF AS A BENCHMARK FOR URSELF and when u do it then only u will rise and get out of sufferings..

Seems like with this I am getting my connection with the ALMIGHTY back and i am sure he will bail me out soon as i wont ever lose my faith or even an ounce of hope no matter how hard i fall when try to run or jump..
I will reach for the stars soon and see all of my dreams coming true in this life itself..

Keep the faith!!!

God bless all..

Doc Suman maám.. PLS GET WELL SOON I DO PRAY FOR YOU EVERYDAY..  :) TAKE CARE

Historical Analysis

Almost 20 days done out here so thought of doing a past performance analysis of my health..

Loss of balance; Still exists but down by around 60%

Strength: Hands have improved slowly and steadily in terms of strength rating 60%..some of the movements still an issue..

Legs feel better but hip girdle is still the weakest link its improving but very slowly rating 40%

Abdominal muscles ; the best improvement shown till now 80%

Back muscles around 40%

Improvements: strength of hands of legs, control of body parts, twitching has come down significantly

WIP: Hip girdle looks like it needs more time and efforts but can be cured

Stress Points: Ring finger and index finger of right hand are going off the border mark into the negative territory as typing and getting hold of few things getting worst...need to work on this as well...

So for my plan of action is coming week is all focused on hip girdle and strengthening of muscles.

Pray for me guys i am missing trekking cycling running..

God bless you all!!!

Breakeven

Hi guys been sometime.. I hope everybody is doing great!!!

For me things have been better everyday doing some difficult yoga positions at least for me it was difficult..

SWAMIJI is treating me well pushing me to the extent ... infact today when i woke up i didn't took support from the wall or door and even i can feel the strength back in the spine and legs..the hip girdle is still the weakest link.. spine has become straight and my tummy it wasnt a tummy just my abdominal muscles have become weak so all the organs were hanging out...but with 2200 bhastrika its getting back in shape and i can feel my six packs back again as its been over a year they have been showing unity and were joined together in group hanging out..

Got to know wife and a dear friend of mine are coming down for my birthday will be good break for me as its around 20 days they will be here and i am planing to go out have some delicious spicy food.. might go to crocodile park or the zoo as well not sure but i am sure none of the guests from mumbai or kolkatta would have seen a croc park..

Got 3cute pups out here who have become my good friend and i love them a lot.. still around 2 months old but very cute and beautiful..

Just keep on praying for me guys as i am sure with divine help i will be out of this mess very soon and will guide others as well...

It seems like god wanted me to give long break to think about my life and its ways and finally i have learned it may it be the hard way but have learned the true meaning so after recovery for sure will lead a hectic life and follow the sun..

God bless you all!!!!

ANd hey guys Doc Suman maám visited me this sunday got some interesting books hard to read but find them good..

Take care time for me to take power nap and then carry on with the day..

Cheers

Off Day

Got a break today interms in regular schedule as yesterday's tsunami in Japan and hailstrom in ranchi was terrible as today i was down with flu.. lots of weakness and mild headache so got nothing to write except had a good practical insight from MATAJI about life and its way..

So today nothing special about MND but a thanksgiving sermon in an alphabetical order:

Bear grylls: Thanks for being the survivor and inspiring me to be one... see you soon

Bhumit: u r the icon mate...

Debu: A brilliant friend and indeed a true one as well... see you soon buddy as i will be coming to kol soon may be in may... take care of tanya and yourself my dear.. thanks for being such a wonderful partner and friend..

Doc Suman: Thanks for being the source of postivity and inspiring me always...

KrisH: Thanks for being there as true friend motivator entertainer and a wonderful person... ,missing your sms and jokes buddy

Nati: Thanks for keeping me updated about the official gossip and politics and a wonderful friend..

Manish: Sorry dude for missing you out.. but trust me guys he is d best family doc one can ever have.. He has been telling me about the signs which i would have paid heed to wouldnt have led to this problem but anyways he is still there so i am sure i can sail thru this as well... Thanks bro 4 being there and get married soon missing udaipur.

Meghu; Thanks for being a blessing in disguise as without you coming down to ranchi and meeting so many wonderful and getting cured would have been impossible.. Thanks for being a good friend and being there whenever needed.. missing the food cooked by you and come and visit me soon also dont forget the breads for the dogs.. take care

Rajesh G: The best bond trader in HSBC missing you brother especially your slangs.. Take care and thanks for everything

Roshni: My beautiful wife i'm missing you a lot here thanks for being there with me during the times when i needed you the most and getting married to me as trust me life would have been impossible without you..
I am recovering well you just be the man of the family for the time when i have taken a backseat.. rest perfect see you soon as i know you will be here for my birthday

Uma: Thanks for taking care of my gorgeous wife and being a true friend.. go ahead buy a BB curve wonderful business phone.. Killer tech behind it..

Yogi: Ahh.. no words for this chap gem of the person and standing there by myside whenever needed and a true friend in real sense.... thanks mate as without you my survival would have be very tuff.. you rock..

For the rest of the lot you all the stars of my sky and you shone during the dark days and darker nights of my life..

Keep rocking and a wonderful party is going to be on cards in GOA soon and all r invited..

Take care.. Good Night !!!

Incredible!!!!!

After 3 days of hard work sweat blood sleep finally the barrier is broken i can feel strength and power in my limbs.. count of exercises went from 20 to 100 with 40% of SWAMIJI's strength and rest mine own cant believe it have lost some weight around 4 kgs but body is regaining its strength back..

Getting up and sitting down is much easier need some support only when i get up from sleep and my sleep ahh... has gone up by 6 hours during day i sleep like an owl..

Improvement is definitely visible from outside and i can feel the same from inside as well..

I feel so good at times about the fact that i was chosen by ALMIGHTY for this MND as i am now sure god believed in me and was sure i can sail thru this and i can see the shores not very far...Everyday there is something new improvement is not slow and steady but its fast and furious after a week or so i am sure i will be like what i was when i was 18 with lots of energy, spirit, enthu and girl friends...

Just kidding roshni u r still the one and will always be the one... Mom has been very supportive out here and so was Dad.. Missing Doc Suman maám its been quite sometime she came down and visited me...

Appetite has gone up big time feel like college days when we used to hit a spot with unlimited thali.. food and rest are primary agenda after the exercise regime..

Its all about disciplined exercises, food, rest and a person like HHH SWAMIJI and food cooked by HHH MATAJI that this so called incurable MND can be cured fully infact u will be much better than what u were earlier both physically and mentally...

Proud to be a warrior and a survivor too....

Have a gr8 day ahead..

Water Water Water

Today was the water day for me... had to drink around 4 glasses of saline water and then vomit it out... sounds eekkss but is an amazing treatment as it clears ur stomach and food track .. when i did it for the first time i puked out red saline water which was because of acid present in the stomach...

Round 2 is drinking another 4 glasses and running to the loo for download...which clears ur intestine...

The treatment here begins from within as digestive system is all cleared by this process...

What i feel is yoga, meditation, physio, good quality food and yes lots of drum sticks in good for health and for sure will lead to better life and finally freedom from this MND...

Day 8 and i am super positive for the getting back to normal life... Sounds impossible but its a miracle treatment out here which has made me super confident..

My plan of action is focus first on shoulder girdle as its improved a lot and then shift to hip girdle which is still weak.. Be methodical and mentally super positive even if u fall rise and try again...

BUT DONT GIVE IT UP AND NO SPACE TO URSELF.. JUST KEEP ON TRYING AND MAKING EACH DAY A DIFFERENT THAN THE YESTERDAY WITH MORE EXERCISE MEDITATION AND THAT KILLER ATTITUDE..

Take Care guys... see you soon

A Weekly Affair

Today i finished off a week in ashram under SWAMIJI's instruction and care.

Have become very powerful in the mental plane and health is overall back around 15%. I am sure recovery will be quick.. diet pattern has changed for good as exercise schedule is getting hectic...

Today  could see SWAMIJI entering my brain and curing the brain was a different experience all together..

Twitching is done to 90% its just the muscles which gives me jolts at times....only concern is my right hand's ring finger is going off as while typing its not obeying my order and is not in line with the rest of his peers..

That finger in accupressure is related to spine so i am happy with the same as spine must be cured so its a temp phenomenon..

Juat read mails from Suman's Maám and yes its true women they rule always right but i never knew they are so good in reading maps..

Rest perfect form my end...

CHEERS.....

Journey

Hi, I was born on 6th April with the traits of an true RAM headstrong with the motto of "Lead, follow or get out of the way," (Only what I mean is "I'm gonna lead. The rest of you follow. And God help whoever doesn't get out of the way.")


Not a bright student though but had lots of god's grace which helped me make the best of the time. Lived it kingsize like there is no tomorrow. Got married to the girl of my choice and did what i was born to do .. HEAD DIRECTLY TOWARDS THE GOAL which was a NEVER EVER STOP till its enough.


I started getting strange painful boils in my thighs and groin area during December 2009 which used to become a lump and then burst emitting lots of pus and blood and trust me their eruptions used to super painful i used to feel like mother earth when volcanoes emit lava it was something similar.


First fall happened during a night trek, then the whole deck of cards came crashing down.. first the night trek, then couldn't go for morning jogs, then ridding on a bike, climbing stairs basically anything against gravity was a living nightmare for me.


A week b4 marriage i.e14th June i got admitted with acute food poisoning.. the worst part it happened after i had momos i was lost how the hell on earth can a boiled food item cause food poisoning.. Got well with few litres of drip.


Enjoyed my honeymoon to the max with lots of adventure sports... got a local flu on the day of departure but recovered within 3 days back in Mumbai, India.


Then the attack was rapid.. broke my rib as my legs couldn't take my body weight, fractured my leg while crossing a road( a dead simple road.. oosshh it was a terrible joke for me), then came MALARIA which left me with no energy.


We had a nice offsite in goa and when i returned back on 19th evening started feeling terrible cramps and pain in legs... managed somehow to reach home..


20th September 2009 couldnt stand had a classy fall and had to be admitted to the hospital for the same... 100 days of hospitalization post marriage with a crankie surgery took half of my life and was good enough to push to the corner of cliff when i came to know its MND.


But we (RosH my pretty wife) didnt give up, we were still strong we can sail thru this its nothing but a strom which cant deter us.


We went to BRD aka Baba RamDev got some panchkarma done along with few ayurvedic meds.. it did work as a life support system for me as aftereffects of the same lasted for 2 months..


Then again second strike came in couldnt wear my own clothes get on a lift, tie shoe laces i thought this thing needs a proper strategy to or else i will be grounded forever..A dear friend of mine Meghz referred me to a Swamiji who cured his mom from nerve and bone weakness.. i had till then given up hope on medicines and wanted to give everything a shot which come in..


Feb 25, 2011 Landed in ranchi, met swamiji for the first time and somewhere withing i got a spark that he is the one who can be the captain of my ship thru this storm... and I surrendered
March 01, 2011 Made swamijis ashram my base camp.. Learned about another Divine power and when i saw her i was amazed if this is real or not.. Positivity and Power were present around her and for that u dont have to see her its all surrounding her... she is known as MATAJI


Then treatment started with physio, meditation, delicious food cooked by MATAJI. her KADI is the best one can ever cook on planet earth..


SWAMIJI was the guy i've always been dreaming of pushing me to the limits and today is a week and i can see the difference the control is back to normal levels and strength also improving on a daily basis..


March 02,2011 Around noon time met a wonderful angel .. she was a fountain of positivity and energy for me.. Doc Suman maám.. she reinforced the faith and confidence within me that i can survive this crap MND which is supposed to be incurable.


March06, 2011 Met senior of the MND battlefront Doc Manoj sir( he is husband of the Angel Doc) even he was diagnosed with MND around 18 months back. I envy him for his job as he is with a BSF as a Doc as even i wanted to join Defence Forces but couldnt do so.. He has been under SWAMIJI's treatment for last 7 months and has shown considerable amount of improvement.. ICON FOR ME as another source of inspiration got lot to learn to him,,, by the way they i.e Doc Manoj and Suman are proud father of 2 gorgeous beauties one is around 4 another 6.


The fight against the so called deadly incurable MND is nothing but a mind game u conquer ur mind u conquer it all.... and i am dead sure within 10 days i will be playing cricket with SWAMIJI in his Ormanjhi ashram for sure and next 2 months i will be back to MOUNTAINS the place we belong and yes i am sure Manoj Sir will be the leader of my dream expedition of a cycle trip to LADAKH..


my email is topnotchgun@gmail.com


Just give it a fight as a child if born health has to die healthy...


Thanks to god, swamiji, mataji, parents and roshni... missing you..